[His only response is a long, shaky breath, after which he buries his face in both hands. All the adrenaline that built up in his system as he prepared to drop this news now has nowhere to go, and he's actually trembling from the force of it rushing and pinballing through his body.]

Nah, no, just - just gimme a sec. [He laughs, quiet and brittle.] I forget sometimes. No one else fucking knows him. They can't know what it means to be... to have any part of him in your... in what you are.